Today I got a text message and an email from the U.S. Embassy in Tbilisi, warning me to vary my routes because of global terror activity. Yeah, what the fuck ever, embassy. Maybe instead of emailing English teachers making $300 a month in random countries and telling us to watch our asses, you could email the President and tell him that torturing prisoners and killing boatloads of innocent civilians all over the world isn’t making anyone any safer. Not that Obama’s the one doing the murdering – no, for that, he has thousands of willing volunteers. America’s armed forces: making the world safe for democracy by dropping bombs on funerals full of women and children.
Today a peaceful demonstration advocating LGBT rights was attacked by Georgian priests. I’ll let that sink in for a second. I thought priests were all about nonviolence and being Christlike or whatever, but apparently not in Georgia. Some savage death cult called the Union of Orthodox Parents is apparently concerned that if Georgians don’t beat every gay person in Georgia, their children will fail to grow up to be hateful, primitive sacks of shit like them – an outcome which would, apparently, violate thousands of years of Georgian tradition.
Georgia is far from unique in this respect. It’s not like there aren’t hateful, primitive sacks of shit in America. Rick Santorum and Rush Limbaugh and all the others have conspired to deprive me of my imperialist feelings of self-righteousness and smug superiority. There’s still anti-gay violence and bullying in New York City, of all places. What the fuck, America?
I don’t understand why we human beings are so fucking evil sometimes. My country murders innocent children with a disgusting regularity, and then we call the murderers “heroes” and throw them coming home parties and wonder why their suicide rate is so high, why they can’t live with themselves after seeing the real consequences of “fighting for their country”. Ever look at pictures of all the birth defects that America caused in Fallujah? Don’t bother, if you haven’t seen them it’s probably because you don’t care, and not caring is the only rational way to cope with membership in the human race once you start to fully appreciate what we fucking do to each other.
There are people starving all over the world, others dying from preventable diseases, others dying from treatable diseases, and all the while we use up the planet’s resources and we can’t replace them and when they run out, we are all going to be incredibly, apocalyptically fucked, but instead of doing something about it, a disturbing number of fucking shortsighted scumbags decide that beating up on gay people is a better use of their time. Really? Is that what you want to leave behind on this planet?
Christians believe that if you suffer in this life – suffer in a specific, Christian way, that is – you will be rewarded when you die. They worship a god who died, and decorate their churches and walls and necks with figures and replicas representing the ancient torture device used to kill said god. They inflict suffering on each other and on everyone else to ensure themselves a good place in the afterlife, and seem completely unaware of the dissonance between the love they preach and the cruelty they practice. In their religious rituals they symbolically consume the body and blood of their dead god who preached peace and love and forgiveness. Blood and suffering and death and more death: Christianity in a nutshell, not that it’s significantly worse than any of the other psychotic death cults we humans like to belong to.
Will the bloodlust of humanity ever end? Is there any point to any of this? I like to think so – I like to think that as we move through history we become more civilized and enlightened and less brutal and we kill and maim – per capita – fewer people in every era. I like to hope that one day we will fucking learn how to live with one another without constantly resorting to violence and I hope it happens before we wipe ourselves out with our own stupidity.
After a day like today, that hope seems paltry and foolish.